It has been a good stint. We will be finishing up Tuesday morning and head home.  I am looking forward to this very much.

Before hed tonight, I watched a lightning storm far off in the distance.. so far that you cannot hear the thunder.  Watching storms many kilometers away is something I enjoy and find great peace in.

I am in my tent now and only hear the wings of a thousand tiny invaders seeking my flesh.  Sorry littlw friends, you had quite enough of me today.

My throne awaits..


Certainty (qp)

Posted: June 28, 2014 in Day and a life of...

There is no such thing as certainty in life.  It is an illusion we all try to manage and obtain in order to go about our lives peacefully.. never worrying.  The only ‘certainty’ is that nothing is for certain and can change instantly.

My world is changing constantly whether I want it too or not.  Nothing is for certain.

Would it really kill those beings determining my future or progress in life a little stability for more than a month at a time?  Unless it is all on my shoulders; then it prooves how much I have yet to learn. 

I am so tired.  I am tired of being tired.
So sick and tired of it…

The struggle continues.


My Kingdom Come (qp)

Posted: June 24, 2014 in Day and a life of...


This is the world I understand.

This is the world where I belong.

This is the world where it all makes sense.

This is the world where I feel free.

This is the world … where you know you can find me.


Gimme a break (qp)

Posted: June 24, 2014 in Day and a life of...

So here I am in the Bancroft area of Mazinaw, Ontario.. after a long day of driving and I have my little radio on in my tent.  I don’t know any good stations yet as it’s only night one.. and this station is talking about happy couples, happy marriages, advice and theories all about marriages.. Does he love you? Appreciate you? Being hyper critical over things we do in relationships.. Seriously?

Statistics,  struggling marriages, how to improve things.. you name it.  I really don’t need to hear this shit right now.  Where are the sounds of creepy shit?  I’d take that 10x over this crap right now.

At least it’s starting to rain.  Time to tune out.

Give me a break.


Change (qp)

Posted: June 19, 2014 in Day and a life of...

Things change whether you want them too or not.  Sometimes its for the best, sometimes it’s not.

In other circumstances we don’t necessarily want things to change, but in one way or another they do.  We feel helpless to do anything about it, and we often just have to deal with the fallout of the situation. 

In my situation, it’s hard to say if things have changed or not.. but they sure look different depending on whos perspective views it. 

I just need to focus on myself.  Maybe I’ll do that awhile longer once again. 

It’s a funny thing.  You work so hard to get to a better place in life and only realize later that none of it really matters.  Just being able to find someone (or people) to share life with, is enough of a reward in itself.  I’m happy for everyone who has that special someone(s) to share things with.  I’ve always been more of a lone wolf myself, but even I get the desire to roll with a pack once and awhile.

I guess my WWF character alias I made on the N64 for WWF No Mercy was pretty true all those years ago. Ryan “The Lone Wolf” Gratton. Haha, oh man what a great game.  Who knew that such a lifestyle would be so conflicting of interests later on in life.

Be happy minions, and enjoy who/what you got.  Not everyone can be as fortunate.

I’m off to play some more Red Dead Redemption before bed.  At least that’s an environment I can save the damsel in distress. (No sexism intended)


Good news!  Since I am now entering a more stable career in terms of my personal life, Chronic Demonic will have much more time to prepare for it’s upcoming reign in the Sault Music Scene!  We have a few songs selected to complete a half hour set and just need time to perfect them.  I have been working on some originals that I don’t know if I will be using in this project, or one that I have on the back burner.  Oh, this will be crushing my minions!  STAY DE-TUNED!

Listen to Metal.


Greetings minions…

I’ve been meaning to do something like this for a few months now, but haven’t ever remembered to do it until I was back in the bush!  I thought it would be neat to write about various strange things that happened to me during my job this summer.  I was/am a Forestry Field Technician and have been deployed all over Ontario doing FRI surveys.  Along the way, some pretty crazy things happened.  I’m not intending on getting too in depth with the stories; just simple stuff.  Anyways, I’m more than certain I will forget most of the things I wanted to write about, so here we go!

Evil in Capreol

Capreol is a little town north of Sudbury, Ontario.  My colleague and I worked most of the summer in this area this summer and ended up using the same campsite several times.  Each stint was roughly 10 days, so we would be tenting 9 nights in the woods each stint.  Most of the time, it was pretty casual and there was no issues.. but sometimes, there was something weird going on.

One night, we were enjoying a few too many beers around the fire, excited about being able to come home the next day.  We ended up having deep meaningless conversation about nothing specific and I noticed a flash.  I know what  I saw, but it didn’t stand out at all.  I thought, maybe I blinked and my eyes thought it saw a flash of light.  My partner didn’t notice it, nor did I ask if he did.  About an hour or so later, we were both sitting by the fire and BAM!.. a massive flash hits the campsite again.  Understand this, we are alone.  There is no-one remotely close to us and this flash was something we both noticed.  We got up and tried to figure out what could have caused this flash?  Neither of us found any evidence of anything but we came up with some conclusions.  Either someone was taking pictures of us, or it was some form of a meteor shower.  The flash of a camera was not the answer since this flash lit up the entire area.. while the flash from a camera (we tested it) only lit up a small area.  The meteor shower was plausible since there was some action the night before.. We thought maybe one blew up above us and we managed to catch the flash.. Either one of these scenarios is what happened, or we were mind probed by aliens…

The next incident  also happened in the same area.. I found this one to be much more disturbing.  One night my partner and I were fast asleep in our tents.. I was camping in the northern end of our campsite and he was 40 meters away to the south of me.  Around 5 am I heard footsteps shuffling around.  I thought nothing of it, since I thought it must have just been my partner going to the washroom.  Well, it turns out.. I asked him about it in the morning while making a joke that it must have been cold out and he replied that he thought it was me!  This means that we both heard the same sound, but it wasn’t either one of us!  Looking back on it, the footsteps were very irregular.. almost like whatever it was, or whoever it was didn’t really have a goal in mind.  It was a very strange walking pattern that was bipedal.  Clearly 2 feet.. not an animal.  It was pretty freaky.  What made it even scarier was that the night before this all happened, I was playing with a night vision monocular my uncle got me and I swear I saw 2 eyes reflecting at me from the bush!  The problem was, that they were roughly 6 ft or higher off the ground, and went back into the bush once I saw it.  Okay, obviously I thought it might have been a deer or a moose at first that took off, but my mind was instantly thinking “Sasquatch“.

Before all this chaos started at this site, we also had a night of very random sounds that added to the “Sasquatch” theory.  We were just getting into our tents and heard sounds of someone throwing rocks into the water.  When I say rocks, I mean boulders.  These were just loud aggressive sounds of something throwing things into the water.  It was a little unsettling hearing this knowing we were both in our tents.  It turns out that we were right when we thought it was just a beaver slapping it’s tail in the water.. but that’s what those “Sasquatch” creatures want you to think.  Are we ever really alone?  This happened several more times throughout the summer.

To make matters worse for my already over-reactive imagination.. a few weeks later we were camping about 45 minutes away from the site mentioned above, and I was awakened to the sound of something hitting my tent.  At first, I thought it was just an odd pine cone that fell and hit my tent.. but it kept happening.. smack!..smack!..smack!..SMACK!  My attention was 100% once I realized what was happening and I shot right up.  It was roughly 6 am and I knew my partner wasn’t awake.  We were leaving that day to head home, so I thought maybe he got up and started packing and wanted me up.  The problem with that theory was that I never was up second on home day.  I shouted my partners name to see if it was him, and I got no reply.. However, another cone or stick hit my tent.  I was freaked right out!  I got up and put my clothes on and got out of the tent.  I was still very tired, but could have sworn I saw something in the corner of my eye take off.  I did the famous double take to make sure I wasn’t crazy but I didn’t see anything.  I woke my partner up to see if he heard anything and he didn’t.  We came to the conclusion that it was a squirrel dropping cones on my tent, but to this day I believe it was something else..

I Don’t Think We Are Alone In Searchmont..

Searchmont is located 45 minutes north of Sault Ste Marie, Ontario.  This was back a few months, but it was damn evil.  I was working with a different partner at this point and was camping with another crew.  The other crew went for a joy ride or something and were gone for several hours.  My partner was a pretty uneventful person, so naturally they went to bed leaving me bored.  I followed suit, went to my tent and read/wrote until I fell asleep.  I woke up around 11:45 pm and was hearing some strange sounds.  All of a sudden, I heard a large animal moving very quickly close to our campsite.  I thought I heard something going through cans and pots that were just laying around the fire pit before making a loud howl/growl and run down the road.  It didn’t sound like anything I’ve ever heard before in my life.  I was pretty scared that something was so close to us and I had no idea what it was.  I naturally thought it was a raccoon at first (which was fine) but when it made the sound(s) and started to run very quickly.. I knew it was something else.  I thought it might have been a moose, or a wolf.  I know, those are pretty far from each other in terms of animal design and size but I was literally 100% uncertain what it was.  My mind was telling me it was a werewolf or Bigfoot and that I was going to be eaten/killed.  I dismissed these thoughts and waited for it to come back.. It didn’t come back unfortunately.  About 20 minutes after this happened, the other crew got back and ended this random experience just as fast as it started.

The Floor is Moving!..

So back in the Sudbury district, I had a very interesting night one evening.  I was fast asleep on my cot getting a good nights rest when I heard some strange sounds coming from my own tent!  I woke myself from a deep sleep and started to focus on what these sounds could be.  It sounded like something moving a little, then stopping.. then move again, and stop.  I was just so out of it I couldn’t understand what I was hearing!  I turned on my flashlight and started looking around the floor.  I didn’t see anything, so I turned it off and went back to sleep.  I woke up again hearing this same sound!  It was more annoying than anything, so I got to work to discover what this madness was.  It turns out that a toad was under my tent trying to get somewhere and was making tons of noise in the process.  I scared it to death when I put my hand on it.  It just lost it’s mind and started jumping everywhere (well the best you can jump while under a tent floor!).  What was scary about this whole experience was that all stint, toads would gather at my tent and try to climb it or go under it.  Every night there was at least 3-4 toads around and on my tent.  Not my partners, but just mine.  It had to have been witchcraft.

Outside of these few incidents, I can’t really think of anything else on the top of my head that was creepy.  I know lots of things happened this summer that was scary in different ways, but these were the more interesting stories.  So remember folks, when you go into the woods.. you are not alone and are most likely being watched by aliens, witches and Bigfoot.  They are all trying to eat you and probably will if you let your guard down.  Ahh, it’s been a great summer!  I hope you enjoyed this small collection of interesting stories!

Next time, I’ll tell you about the troll story.