Strange (qp)

Posted: September 2, 2014 in Day and a life of...

I feel strange.  I’ve been having all sorts of weird feelings today making it very confusing.  I feel detached and lonesome.

Odd.  Seeing this weather makes me happy but I have nothing to share it with.

It has been a good stint. We will be finishing up Tuesday morning and head home.  I am looking forward to this very much.

Before hed tonight, I watched a lightning storm far off in the distance.. so far that you cannot hear the thunder.  Watching storms many kilometers away is something I enjoy and find great peace in.

I am in my tent now and only hear the wings of a thousand tiny invaders seeking my flesh.  Sorry littlw friends, you had quite enough of me today.

My throne awaits..

r.

Certainty (qp)

Posted: June 28, 2014 in Day and a life of...

There is no such thing as certainty in life.  It is an illusion we all try to manage and obtain in order to go about our lives peacefully.. never worrying.  The only ‘certainty’ is that nothing is for certain and can change instantly.

My world is changing constantly whether I want it too or not.  Nothing is for certain.

Would it really kill those beings determining my future or progress in life a little stability for more than a month at a time?  Unless it is all on my shoulders; then it prooves how much I have yet to learn. 

I am so tired.  I am tired of being tired.
So sick and tired of it…

The struggle continues.

r.

My Kingdom Come (qp)

Posted: June 24, 2014 in Day and a life of...

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This is the world I understand.

This is the world where I belong.

This is the world where it all makes sense.

This is the world where I feel free.

This is the world … where you know you can find me.

r.

Gimme a break (qp)

Posted: June 24, 2014 in Day and a life of...

So here I am in the Bancroft area of Mazinaw, Ontario.. after a long day of driving and I have my little radio on in my tent.  I don’t know any good stations yet as it’s only night one.. and this station is talking about happy couples, happy marriages, advice and theories all about marriages.. Does he love you? Appreciate you? Being hyper critical over things we do in relationships.. Seriously?

Statistics,  struggling marriages, how to improve things.. you name it.  I really don’t need to hear this shit right now.  Where are the sounds of creepy shit?  I’d take that 10x over this crap right now.

At least it’s starting to rain.  Time to tune out.

Give me a break.

r.

Change (qp)

Posted: June 19, 2014 in Day and a life of...

Things change whether you want them too or not.  Sometimes its for the best, sometimes it’s not.

In other circumstances we don’t necessarily want things to change, but in one way or another they do.  We feel helpless to do anything about it, and we often just have to deal with the fallout of the situation. 

In my situation, it’s hard to say if things have changed or not.. but they sure look different depending on whos perspective views it. 

I just need to focus on myself.  Maybe I’ll do that awhile longer once again. 

It’s a funny thing.  You work so hard to get to a better place in life and only realize later that none of it really matters.  Just being able to find someone (or people) to share life with, is enough of a reward in itself.  I’m happy for everyone who has that special someone(s) to share things with.  I’ve always been more of a lone wolf myself, but even I get the desire to roll with a pack once and awhile.

I guess my WWF character alias I made on the N64 for WWF No Mercy was pretty true all those years ago. Ryan “The Lone Wolf” Gratton. Haha, oh man what a great game.  Who knew that such a lifestyle would be so conflicting of interests later on in life.

Be happy minions, and enjoy who/what you got.  Not everyone can be as fortunate.

I’m off to play some more Red Dead Redemption before bed.  At least that’s an environment I can save the damsel in distress. (No sexism intended)

r.

Good news!  Since I am now entering a more stable career in terms of my personal life, Chronic Demonic will have much more time to prepare for it’s upcoming reign in the Sault Music Scene!  We have a few songs selected to complete a half hour set and just need time to perfect them.  I have been working on some originals that I don’t know if I will be using in this project, or one that I have on the back burner.  Oh, this will be crushing my minions!  STAY DE-TUNED!

Listen to Metal.

r.